I want him to know I love him. I want him to feel that we both tried, but this was way too big for us: we aren’t going to survive this. Even if I hadn’t done what I did with Mal, almost all the strings of our marriage have been severed; waiting together to say goodbye is the last one. Once it has been cut, only love will remain. And it takes more than love–no matter how fervent, deep and passionate–to keep two people together.